Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Dat's da Dizzle fo Shizzle

Alright, I've been asked by many: "What about auto-mechanics?"

The answer is simple: I like to work on cars. I do, plus the auto mechanics field is in demand here...BUT...I LOVE COMPUTER/CONSOLE GAMES!!!!! I love to play them. I own a million of them, I collect them. Why not make them?

I have a huge runs wild all the time, let me tell you! So, I decided to put it to work. It's also somewhat of a bonus that I have wanted to make games and work for a company like Blizzard Entertainment since the appearance of WarCraft...Who doesn't want to live thier childhood dream?

So, there you have the explanation, I hope that clears it up for you. While there are MANY more perks about this new decision, these are the basics.

I hope you all have a good night!

Monday, May 15, 2006

Thanks everyone!

I just wanna say thank you to all those who read my blog and put up with the frequent self-destructive blogs. I know it can be quite annoying and sometimes it may make you worry about the person writing them.

Don't worry! I'm alright and for those of you who know me I do eventually pull out of those ruts where I am depressed.

Things haven't been going too well lately but I am coping and again want to say thank you to those of you who put up with me.

A little word on the Songs by Killjoy blogs: I was not in a bad mood when I posted those...they were in fact written several years ago and I just thought I would post them to see what people thought.

I'm still trying to find a college with a convenient location that offers mechanics programs, but I haven't had much luck...maybe I'll find something soon.

Anywho, I hope you are all doing well and that life is treating you fairly. Goodnight!

Friday, May 12, 2006


So folks, another wonderous week has gone by...(don't ask how it wasn't pretty).

Either way, I found out another hobby I enjoy: WORKING ON CARS! I want to become an ASE certified mechanic so I can do what I like and make money...also it would be a great help with another interest.

What? Did I not mention this other interest? WOW! Well, I'll tell you! It is none other than................(are you ready?): Buying classic junk piles and restoring them to thier former glory as muscle cars! know what I'm talking about!

1970 Ford Gran Torino(Starsky and Hutch car)
1970 Dodge Challenger (450 Mopar engine...4 on the floor...also the Fast and the Furious car)
1969 Dodge Charger
1967 Chevy Corvette
1965 Ford Mustang
1962 Shelby Cobra 500
19??(can't remember the year or make) Dolorian
1964 Ford Fairlane
1957 Chevy Bel-Air(not sure how to spell it)
1969 Chevy Camaro (any of the older models will do actually)

You get the idea. I have a '70 Gran Terino just beyond my grasp at the moment...I'll start with that one once I have it.

Anywho...goodnight y'all!

Friday, May 05, 2006


Thursday, May 04, 2006

Songs by Killjoy Pt. 2

(Chorus)She tore my heart, tore it good
She took my love, beneath her boot
She hurt my pride, hurt it good
She crushed my life, burned to soot

You came and loved me, loved me true
You healed my pain, but not for long
You don't deserve this, my tears aren't from you
you deserve the best, more than this song


I never asked for you to come here
But you did, that's why I hold you dear
This wound's still open though, still bleeds
This heart still hurts, but cause of you still beats

You don't need to tell me that you're not her
I know this all too well, yet I still cry
I see the hurt I cause you, you head for the door
Please don't leave me now, I swear it'll bleed me dry


I never asked you to love me
But you do, now you can see
This prison that holds me, self-created
I've become everything and nothing, self-hated

(music softens words are spoken, not sung)
Baby-I know you care
Really-I see you there
Every man wants your charms,
but you still hold me in your arms
I don't mean put that hurt in those eyes
But don't leave me, if you do my heart'll die
(Music picks back up)


I'm trapped, caged in tears
I'm whipped, a slave to fears
I can't get out, no, never out
I can't say what you need, to shout,
I love you
(softly)But I do, yes, I do.

Songs by Killjoy Pt. 1

(V1)I see a strange shade of gray
Since you went away
For me there is no day
In my mind is where you'll stay


I saw you on the street today
You turned and walked away
For me there's only pain
From my skies falls only rain

(Chorus)My hearts on fire
'Cause you're a liar
I'm always cryin'
But I'm not dyin'.
The worlds still turnin'
Though I'm still burnin'
You leavin' me was not the end
You were my only sin

(V2)At first were happy days
All colors; No shades of gray
I meant the words that I would say
My heart still screams them to this day


You can't see what you've done to me


We could never be



I see a strange shade of gray
*My heart's on fire
Since you went away
*'Cause you're a liar
For me there is no day
*I'm always cryin'
In my mind is where you'll stay
*But I'm not dyin'

Wednesday, May 03, 2006